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Thursday 31 July 2008

7:18 pm

I'M NOT OVER HIM, EVIDENTLY.

it's just a phase, we'll get through this.... -.-".

honestly, with reference to JLC, there is a cricket in my heart scratching to come out.

a cricket high on caffeine.

Wednesday 30 July 2008

8:06 pm

a couple of random photos of when i went to the zoo, just to add abit of colour =D

the centre of attraction's supposed to be the ape in the background, cos he's posing. =)

ANYWAYS. IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED TO KNOW, I WEIGHED MYSELF TODAY.

AND ALMOST GOT A HEART ATTACK.

I WEIGH 71.3KG!

NO JOKE. NO JOKE.

in any case! i am fearlessly telling whoever's-interested-to-know, because

I AM LOSING IT ALL!

well, obviously not ALL, but a big chunk of it. =)

so yes! i am currently a whale, on my way to becoming a swan. or like a goose or something slim.

and also, if anyone is interested to know, i'm reading ONE chapter for QT, for the whole week.

so, i'm reading ephesians 1, once a day, seven times this week.

it is AMAZING, i highly recommend doing this if you're stuck in your QT =)

you won't believe how many different things God's got to say through just one simple passage.

alrighty, back to psych =D

Sunday 27 July 2008

7:28 pm

ah, it's gonna be one of those seasons.

the kind where, if i don't hold on to God for dear life, i'll lose it.

the kind where, "if i don't stand firm in my faith, i will not stand at all." (isa 7:9)

the kind where, "if i am willing and obedient, i will eat the best from the land." (isa 1:20)

and the Lord God says, "test Me in this, and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it (if you obey what I have told you)."

and He commands, "do not let My Word depart from your mouth, meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it, and you will be prosperous and successful" (josh 1:8).

and He challenges me to make this the anthem of my life:

to "demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ" (2 cor 10:5).

and He promises, "you will be like a well-watered garden, [continually refreshed], like a spring whose waters never fail", if i spend myself in behalf of His needy (isa 58:10-11).

and He desires to "create in me a pure heart, and renew a steadfast spirit within me, restoring to me the joy of His salvation" (psa 51:10), so that i can "live no longer for myself but for Him who died for me and was raised again" (2 cor 5:15).

and where He confirms that trouble will come (john 16:33)

but He vows, "when you pass through the waters, I will be with you; when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you; when you walk through the fire of oppression, the flames will not set you ablaze" (isa 43:2).

and He urges me to "choose life!" now that He has set before me life and death, blessings and curses (deut 30:19).

it's one of those rollercoaster rides again.

here we go.

Saturday 26 July 2008

9:45 pm

strange how easy sinful thoughts seep in

strange how easy it is to hear satan's voice

strange how he never shuts up.

thankfully there's always God

my solace

my blanket

my strong tower, refuge, fortress, sword and shield

my Dad and Bestie <3

but what happens when Daddie keeps quiet?

and meanwhile, satan's there, never shutting up

what when thoughts of inferiority and defeat begin to bombard you?

like a hammer, pound, pound, pounding the nail

making sure it gets in, making sure the thought doesn't escape before it gets into you

into your heart where it desires to take root and produce fruit of sin and helplessness

what when you look around

and you feel like you're on a travellator on reverse, going backwards instead of forward

and all you can see is hopelessness and failure and exhaustion?

what when you look into yourself

and you realize you're all used up

and so all you see is emptiness, a great gulf of just... nothing?

what when you look to God

strain your eyes to see Him

strain your ears to hear Him

strain your heart to feel Him

and He's no where to be seen, heard, felt?

what happens then?

1:01 pm

PRESENTS FROM SINGAPORE ARRIVED YESTERDAY! =D

HEH HEH. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

adorable little cards from mummy, sooo happy i cried when i read them. hahahha :D

from dawn!!! =D effective tear ducts with this one too =)

thank you kelly!!! =D hahaha yeah i know you're not an artsy person so i reallyyy appreciate it!

SO CUTE. I LOVE IT. =D thank you liz! =)) hahaha LOVE MY BFF <3

yeah i know the thing in the middle isnt written in a very nice way but i don't know what else to stick in the middle... =.="

okay honorary mention cos i didn't expect anything from rachel. so, thank you babe! =)

we have to take more pictures together man, i look -bleah- in all my photos with you -.-"

anyways thank you matz! =)

and momo club. if we're still called that. HAHAHA. =)

whoo~ presents made my day :D

okay shucks i sound so airhead now.

I HAVE BEEN DOING RESEARCH FOR MY PSYCH ESSAY!

i spent hours in the library today!

HOW'S THAT FOR ANTI-AIRHEADEDNESS?

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA >=D

random cute sms from ally:

"OMG! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I RESCUED MY MOTHER BROTHER AND SISTER FROM THE EVIL BLUE COLOUR VERY BIG LOOK LIKE BEE INSECT! Muahaha!!!"

Thursday 24 July 2008

6:54 pm

In the autumn on the ground, between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons, while a north wind blows through
I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories - whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I'll give it time, give it space, and be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

I'll be waiting for you, baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right
Love is waiting

It's my caution, not the cold

There's no other hand that I would rather hold
The climate changes, I'm singing for strangers, about you
Don't keep time, slow the pace
Honey, hold on if you can
The bets are getting surer now that you're my man

I could write a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
And like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,
Neither should I rush my way into your heart

I'll be waiting for you, baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right
Love is waiting

brooke fraser is amazing, and so beautiful. i might be in love with her. =)

Wednesday 23 July 2008

1:32 pm

AWESOME ALBUM.

GET IT, GET IT NOW!!!!!!!

12:41 am

ELIZ AND I ARE IN LOVE WITH THE SAME GUY.

OHH NNO.

Tuesday 22 July 2008

9:45 pm

"because when you make these plans

and try to undermine

and try to manipulate

and get jealous

and entertain these thoughts

and welcome these emotions...

you are not trusting Me."

Monday 21 July 2008

5:48 pm

FALLS CREEK, BABY!

SNOWBOARDING IS SO COOL BUT I SUCK AT IT. so this is a picture of us waiting for our boarding lesson to start, right? and like 15 minutes into the lesson i couldn't take it anymore so i quit. HAHAHA. YES! I AM A QUITTER! HA HA HA!

went back to the apartment to slack off abit. and look. it's so pretty. look! look!

the living room. THERE'S A FIREPLACE!!! and the view from here is spectacular =D

my room, i shared with elisa =)

kickass kitchen with everything provided. like. pots and pans and everything. =) and apparently its sink is branded. or something. hahahaha.

toilet, JACUZZI INCLUSIVE. not that we had time to use it. but still! =D

there. the fireplace i mentioned earlier. =)

roasted marshmallows and globbed on generous globs of nutella & peanut butter =D

NEXT DAY...

proof that a camwhore is a camwhore, no matter the circumstance. HA HA.

my hands were freezing, because to use the camera i had to get my gloves off and it was snowing. so. yeah. =) THIS IS ME ON THE CHAIRLIFT. see the pretty background?

there, it looked like this =)

while the others were snowboarding, i, the quitter, decided to embark on the development of a whole new project, a snowman! =D

CUTE OR NOT?!?!!??!?!!!!?!??!?! CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after my incredible achievement i felt a renewed sense of confidence in myself. so decided to try my hand at boarding again. =)

AM LOOKING SO ZAI HERE.

fell down again but look! i am smiling! =) because must pose for the picture what. hahaha. so yeah. gave up again. =)

i wrote another letter to my future husband on this trip. seeing the snow and sitting at the fireplace just made me think of him, wherever he is. i'm missing you...

anyway! more pictures of the gorgeous snow, soo romantic, even if treacherously cold.

random pic of me. =D

i asked Daddie to show me His beauty on the mountain.

that there, i would see His splendor... and i'm not sure i did.

everything was breathtaking and just so spectacular to behold, sure, but i think, this time, God was in the little whisper and not the earthquake or the flood or the fire, or whateverelse it was.

i know i'm not making sense, but whatever =)

anyways everytime i saw how incredibly white and clean and pure the snow was, my mind went back to isaiah 1:18,

"though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow..."

GOD IS AWESOME! SEE?? SEE???

hahaha okay anyways. it was gorgeous but so tiring and muscles are all aching from trying to stand up with my feet attached to stupid snowboard. haha. okay. =)

I'VE GOT THREE ESSAYS DUE!!!!!!!!!

PSYCH, HOI, MEDIA&COMM.

WHOO GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH AND WISDOM. AND FAVOUR. =D

in Jesus' name, amen =D

Thursday 17 July 2008

5:50 pm

happy birthday shalom fung!

happy birthday cheryl cheong!

and gail but i dont have her photo =)

miss you guys heaps <333

Tuesday 15 July 2008

11:57 pm

17 IS A SEXY NUMBER.

so anyways, apparently everyone thinks pink is my favourite colour, or something. haha. it seems i've become a bimbo. =D

dinner with afew of the OCF girls at chinatown =)

heheh found a piece of beef that looks like a seahorse :D

pretty pink beanie! yay my head won't freeze at falls creek :D

thanks for pretty pretty presents guys =D

see?? i love pink!!!!!! omg so Elle-Woods. hahaha. thanks joanna! =D

the palmerston girls dropped by to give me a.. erm, tulip. a paper tulip. HA HA HA. yes it's proudly sitting on my desk =)

dear urban life! =) so i opened the door, saw all the balloons and the candle, and my brain just went blank, like, i was so surprised. hahaha.

and my present from them, shoelaces. =) PINK shoelaces. HAHAHA!

so anyways i don't dare the burst the balloons so they're all lying around the apartment right now. hahaha. just. lying around blocking my path. =) HAHAHA. it was really sweet though. thanks guys =D

oooh oooh pudding cake thing SUPER SHIOK. from this really sweet girl amanda from my media&comm class =D

HAHAHA. i dont know what to say. =D this is livia, she lives downstairs =)

colorful pretty dangly thing from hilda =D thanks sweetie! =)

so! i walked for like 15 minutes to the post office to collect packages... from dawn! dawn KOH. =) there're heating packs in there, SO practical and handy. whoohoo thank you so much darling. i miss you! <3

also from N3PJ =)

anyways i was really really happy, carrying parcels from the post office back to the apartment. HAHAHA. ahem still waiting for somemore. ahem ahem.

anyways! HA HA HA look, so retarded :

THANK YOU DARLINGS. I LOVE YOU ALL ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT. YOU ARE SO SWEET AND THE PRECIOUS MOMENTS THING IS SO CUTE AND I LOVE IT. =D

so anyway! this birthday turned out to be... not bad! hahaha.

PLUS, i got my results back, for most of my subjects, and they rock so i'm happy and that adds to the not-bad-birthday thing! =D

i asked Daddie for presents too. i dont know if He's given them to me but. yeah.

STILL WAITING, DADDIE. STILL WAITINGGGGGG.

the same power the conquered the grave lives in me, lives in me

Your love, that rescued the earth, lives in me, lives in me~